Los Angeles based Photographer Nolwen Cifuentes shows us an honest little snippet in a young girl’s life. Model Elizabeth spreads this mix of what it feels like being young. The endless energy opposite the thoughful moments in which you try to understand yourself and the world around you. It was all shot in Slidell, Lousiana in Elizabeth’s real room and house. Styling is done by Christina Flannery

 

“It feels strange to write in a diary without any hopes or expectations that someone will read it. I’ve never really written for myself, I’ve always wanted to, but I also want someone else to read my thoughts and be impressed by how intellectual I am. It feels strange to not have that restriction. I guess I am writing this to have a better understanding of myself.

Why am I not interested in politics? Am I dumb? Why do I feel like I care about nothing? I feel so empty sometimes. I have no real interests. I care about dancing, I want to be an actress maybe but I don’t really know anything about it. I want to be knowledgable, I want to be interesting. I feel like all I care about is boys. I keep thinking about Carl. It’s all that interests me and it saddens me a bit. I really like Carl. I have that cute little crush feeling and I love it. Does he like me back? Does he think I’m pretty? I like him so much. He’s dorky and funny and cute. He smells great.

Sometimes I feel like I am wasting my life away, watching TV, surfing the net, thinking of Carl. I can’t really focus on school. I think it’s a bad design.

I want to be consumed. I want to be infatuated with something I create. With something that is mine. With something that is not a boy. I fall in love so easily. I want something else, I want to fall in love with something else. I want I want I want I want. I never do. Is it so hard to be a girl? Or is it hard to be anyone?”

writing by Nolwen

 

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Photographer: Nolwen Cifuentes / www.nolwencifuentes.com / @nolwencif
Stylist: Christina Flannery / www.christina-flannery.squarespace.com / @xtinawhatever
Model: Elizabeth