Letting go is that grey area where we hang in, balancing back and forward, hoping for the chance to go back while fighting to move towards the unknown new.”

 

Photography by Ellis Marell
Text by Vanessa Silva Miranda

 

‘When I’m near you is when I feel the most far away. Distance is what brings me closer. My memories and all the sensations my body feels from remembering you, stuck me to the ground. Your mouth on my neck, on my lips, your breath starting to rush, your heart exhilarating with excitement. My hands caressing your back where I drew constellations of stars and love. Soft whispers that carried lust and promises.’

What happens when we think we have found what we have searched all our life for… and we have to let it go? What can we do when all we want is to detach that part of our soul but still feel compelled to lean in into the past? Not because we don’t feel capable of moving but simply because our found treasure is so beautiful that leaving it behind may leave us incomplete. Sometimes we live a moment so beautiful that we are afraid it will never repeat itself, so we hold on to it with all our forces. We don’t even realize we are losing ourselves, becoming ghosts, guardians of petrified salt memories, just a shadow that is missing out on the endless beautiful possibilities the world outside has to offer. Letting go is that grey area where we hang in, balancing back and forward, hoping for the chance to go back while fighting to move towards the unknown new. It’s simple to move forward, never easy. It’s simple because it’s the only thing we can do, that we must do in order to progress. One foot in front of the other, one month after another, memories start to fade like old polaroids, slipping away….until one day we realize that they moved on from inside our mind to the place in our heart where we keep hold of cherished moments that happened and then ended… and then we are finally free!