A series photographed by Keitaro Cloward. Part 4 starring Lieyah, Jaz, Leia, Lola and Ailanni. Styling done by Leia Mayaan. “It’s getting late, the music is still playing, Lola has to leave. Sitting around hanging out for one last moment before everyone goes their way.”
“I smile at people, make eye contact, always admire their dogs and if I see someone looking fabulous – I will take the time to tell them.” We sat down to talk with poet, and body posivity model Cathi Rae about beauty ideals, fashion and taking the time for random interactions.
“We have all collectively kind of forgot to appreciate the simple things in life such as real human interaction with one another and especially with nature.” Photographer Keitaro Cloward in conversation with rhythmic gymnastics and model Nastasya Generalova.
You change as the world changes. You feel as if you are running a race, a never-ending marathon up and down impossibly tall mountains. You try to slow down to catch your breath. Sometimes you want to stop. There is no stopping. The change continues, like a ball rolling down a hill, hurtling over everything in its path, changing direction without warning, propelled by its own inertia. You become a ball too, pulled along by your own relentless inertia. For better or for worse, you change.
A Love Affair. Devoting your time with heart and soul to something you love can unveil elusive energy, undreamt possibilities. This issue we dedicate to passion. The passion and love for what you do. The sort of passion that once it enters your life, you can‘t relinquish. It catches you, and like a wave, carries you up and down, impels you, and guides you to countless opportunities, endless like the vast ocean. Who knows where it carries you?
“Painting to me represents presence, freedom and a constant search for meaning all in one. Who are we beyond the identities our environment projects on us? I rarely plan my paintings, and they never look the same. Similarly, like water, our sense of self is fluid, ever-changing, adapting and evolving. I suppose, in one word, my work is a reflection of ‘freedom,’ and an invitation for others to discover themselves in it.‘”
“What I want is to get back to the girl who smiled at strangers. Who tried to understand people and their interior worlds because they were just as interesting as hers.” Bad experiences riddle even the kindest of people with distrust, and we battle more complex choices than what’s the right thing to do.
She has a name like a forgotten flower, one that blooms high up in the mountains, a name that makes you want to whisper. She is not fragile, she is not shy, you could not break her. She has a million colors. Sensations that would be mistaken for words and poems you’d want her to inspire you, in her silent presence everything is given life to.
“Julia is a sex educator, stunning model, dancer and all around wonderful person and inspiration.” introduces Joshua Oliver model Julia and his favourite collaborator in Austin. We had a chat with Julia about about feeling disconnected to her body when she was younger and nowadays helping people have tools to communicate about sex and connection.
Maybe to write about happiness is so stock already, that no one will read those lines. But maybe this is the perfect time now to write about something hopeful, something to calm down in the turbulent times we live in. Perhaps now more than ever, at least in the lifetime that I experienced, we are looking for this little sanctuary, a bubble to feel safe, where we wake up with a hearty smile on our lips.
I wonder how my life would be, if there was more empty space in it, more silence between us. I want back to this state of standing the empty space, the not needing to know all, not wanting to share all. And where all that we share is that very moment we have with each other.
“Acting like a shelter, protecting us from the outside world and it’s current crisis, we spent some days into a hotel room in Sao Paulo, Brazil. The changing light and the view from the balcony became my main distraction as a photographer. Using my wife as model I could express myself before being able to join the real world.”
Every day the cards are being reshuffled. Every day you can find new opportunities. And old seeds you planted can suddenly begin to sprout. So be bold, go your way, and always believe in miracles and dreams that come true.
I am happy to get closer and closer to my inner center and the closer I get, the more I can see supposed “losses” as a relief, as an opportunity.
Five years on, and life drawing had continued to be a weekly aﬀair, but I had got myself back to a much better place. The prospect of life-modelling now presented itself in a diﬀerent light: as an opportunity to acknowledge and aﬃrm how far I had come, a positive challenge.