I remember when we said Goodbye, my entire body froze. Layers of zero degrees, I became a glacier, a river of ice. Gradually moving through time dragging broken pieces with me in every inch of my apartment that I paced around in. Time stood still although time had moved on.
I was holding on to so much, frozen.
The day came where the sun hit my window and reflected on my bed and it felt like a heated wake up call to get up. And so I did. I walked outside and I could feel the layers of ice cracking and melting with every step. I felt so much lighter, not following a certain path but just moving towards the sun, as everything I was holding onto melted away.
I found myself in a grassy field, vibrant with flowers already in bloom. I didn’t take any further steps I sat and looked around me as I acknowledged the resilience of nature. If the grass can shake away the ice and the flowers can start to bloom again, Can’t I too?
Spring could not be more relatable in this surface of green. The season before winter and summer when the weather becomes warmer and the plants start to grow again. I was lost and then I found myself in Spring, With Spring.
Every time the wind blows cold or I get a chill that reminds me of that goodbye, I will feel warmth. I stepped outside of my mind and heart and into the warmest most beautiful space. Spring is now a part of me, a part that will never stop blooming. My body covered in petals, I am safe. I am home. I am ready for all new beginnings. I am blossoming. I am Spring.
Photography by Pablo Gil @pabloanyway
model: Paula Gureta @paulagureta
words by words Danni Lee Jackson @dannijack